i have a week and 5 days left before i make my way back to good ol’ KC. i meant to update more during my three months in Asia…but here I am, posting random none-sense Chinese nostalgic videos and making a fool of myself in China. But don’t worry, I did plenty of “serious” things too for the kingdom on top of enjoying God’s goodness during my stay here.
i’ve been out of the habit of blogging…probably because these few months with God putting my heart back together after a massive breaking left me feeling more than just a bit “overexposed?” So here’s my effort at returning back into the blogging world…
One of the many things the Lord has done throughout this trip is giving me closure. Throughout this year I’ve asked Him many times, “why was my heart broken? Why didn’t You prevent this from happening?” But miraculously, throughout this ministry trip, the story of how God allowed me to be broken and how Him healed me with His love has been the most impacting thing I’ve shared.
I’m SO grateful to Jesus for this year. Clinging to Him, crying out to Him night after night, coming to Him with the pain in my heart has birthed fruits of righteousness just as His word promised in Hebrews 12! God has brought me closer to the joy of His holiness. His goodness has been made so much more tangible to me.
I’ve met at least three girls and one guy whose hearts are broken over relationships and lost as to why this has happened to them. One time when one of the girls was sharing her story in a small group Alice and I were leading, Alice leaned over to me and whispered, “now you know why it happened.”
God is so good. Not only does He redeem us and heal us, He transforms us into a vessel of His truth and healing for His children. I love You Jesus! For healing me and helping me let go completely…..to hold Your hand.
I’m still so astounded by how God’s been revealing His Father’s heart to me through this incident. To know my Father in heaven has the BEST for me and will help me not settle for anything less than the best He desires to give me is the greatest gift. Even when I’m throwing a tantrum and arguing with Him about how He has it all wrong, He still fights for my heart to come into agreement with His. Abba, my Father in heaven, truly is my defender and protector.
God is so amazingly good….our hearts that are so accustomed to the ways of this world can’t fully comprehend or believe how good He is. Yet God opens our eyes, enlarges our capacity to enjoy and embrace His totally-other-than-ness. Praise the Lord! That’s why we want to worship God forever, because He is so so so good.
